Feeling Better

I tried to write an article,
but couldn't write straight lines,
so I wrote a poem,
instead with words and rhymes,
It's for a local magazine,
that helps folks with M.E,
to offer them some guidance,
and way's to feel more free,
I hope my poem helps someone,
find hope when they're in doubt,
Cos that's what I am here to do,
and what my life's about,

Angels

Ten whole painful years, extreme M.E I’d dealt,
Loosing everything, alone and lost I felt,

Struggling and crying, pain and fear I knew,
Trying many therapies, chasing every clue,

Wishing, begging, praying, hoping every day,
To free myself from harsh fatigue and to feel ok,

Relapse knocked me down again, from bad to even worse,
“PLEASE God someone help me, escape this evil curse,

Mike was there as usual, to listen to my plea,
Thank Goodness for his kindness, what he gave to me…

Details of Clouds Counselling, to guide me through my strife,
A ray of hope, an Angel, perhaps to save my life,

I telephoned the Counsellor, Sally was her name,
She helped me open-up inside, releasing guilt and shame,

I learned that it’s ok for me to grieve and feel in need,
To cry about the active life, I had and used to lead,

I learned about acceptance, who I am is good and fine,
M.E can be a nightmare, but I deserve to shine,

I’m still a worthy person; I’m not defect or bad,
It’s not my fault I got M.E, I’m no longer sad!

Sally helped me massively; she listened and was wise,
She taught me how to think and see, the world through brand-new eyes.

Several month have passed now, but I still know she’s there,
Should I need a friendly chat or someone just to care,

Now, as I end my poem, I send love from my heart,
To thank both Mike and Sally for helping me re-start,

To have more hope and confidence, more courage, joy, insight,
And an inner-knowing that things are now alright.

Hazel Trudeau June 2008